id be lost without you....

how will i say goodbye to you? i'd try my best not to cry in front of you.even though i know the emotions would eat my heart apart.i'd be crying my heart all night, drowning myself in tears,till i can cry no more.id be burying myself in loneliness till you come back and wipe the sadness off my lips.
when you leave, you'd not be taking a part of me but all of me.you are the reason of my existence.i dont know how i'd be with out you.i know you'd leave for a brighter future, for a life in which you and i may share together, granted that God permits. But absence does not also make the heart grow fonder, it also makes it weaker.
everytime you talk about leaving, my tongue just simply rolls i cant say a word. your enthusiasm is tearing my heart apart.sometimes i wonder if you'd be feeling the hurt i'm feeling. but i know it is your dream, and i should not stop you from achieving it.the small talks we have should help me cope with the situation.its like preparing me for the day when you finally go away.
things would definitely be different when you're gone. no one would be there to hug me when i'm sad, to wipe off my tears when i cry,to kiss me, to tickle me, to comfort me. the warmth you give would not be the same as what my friends can give. it'd be the same yet different all at the same time.
and just like the movie "Beauty and the Beast", return in time or i'd die of a broken heart....