i am lost

i am lost for words...for thoughts...for acts....
i knew that this would be happening but i never thought or even hoped for it to actually happen. i was or i still am waiting for a miracle, that somehow things would turn out the way i hoped or wish it would be. i am in a phase of thinking but i am lost. i cannot find where my mind or my thoughts should go. it's like being in a labyrinth where every twists and turns would bring you to a dead end. i am stuck. i am waiting for the answer but i dont know how or when will i get it and probably even why that would be it. i am in limbo. i shouldn't be here... not now...not ever...

i am lost... and i really wanted to be found...badly!