vanilla sky

its been seven days since i last saw you. seven long days of not wanting to miss you.i really don't want to do that but that was the last thing i know that would refrain me from bugging you or getting mad at you for no logical reason at all. but the bad thing about that is that, ive grown cold towards you...your sweet messages, your attempts to brighten up my gloomy mood... you trying to tell me how much you've missed me. it felt like being in a long distance relationship with you. i wonder how things would be if you really left for a much greener pasture.i think i don't want to know.i don't know if i could wait that long contrary to what i always say.wait, i think i can. i can be single till you ge back. i can be as cold as ice like what i was before you came to my life and yes, i will be colder towards you than i was now. coldness is my shield to not get hurt in the process of missing you.to still be sane while continuing with my life alone without you. i woke up feeling very sedated. i'm not sure if the marshmallow i ate last night had drugs in it or isi just the fine, cloudy weather outside more of like vanilla sky,very calm and...yeah, maybe it was the mallows.i felt silly for treating you like that.felt guilty for acting so childish.all the realizations and answers dawned on me while in the shutte.found the answers all rushing on my tiny narrow mind...and now, i'm starting to understand...when would it wear of...i don't know...maybe after lunch...and at this very second..i'd be telling you...from the bottom of my heart...i missing you so bad it hurts....