*currently sound trippin'
im a firm believer that music heals one's souls. im feeling quite stressed from everything. i wanted to sit in a cool, quiet, dim spot where my mind could just wander off.
missin how carefree life was as a student. how things seemed to be predictable and stable. you study hard, you get good grades. but life is much harder when you're working. things are not what they seem. no matter how much you try to ignore the problem or see the positive side of it, you can't. damn!
workin your butt off but your salary still isn't enough to pay for all the debts and basic needs of your family. it's hard. i'm not complaining but it just is strssful mentally, physically and emotionally.
i know i have a choice to work here or abroad...everybody does...but i chose to stay. i can't do work unless i'm very confident that i am capable of doing it well. people can't seem to understand my perception about this. everyone tells me that i'm throwing away a good opportunity. mahirap kalaban ang ego. besides, as of this moment, this is where my heart is, i'll leave when im ready to let go....
i guess all i could do now is sigh.....
(as corny as it may sound... i find peace in christian songs...uplifts my broken spirit...)
