enraged

i'm actually at the point of screaming my heart out at this moment.things just isn't right anymore. a shout out first to those people who gave out their concerns...thanks guys...it's very uplifting.

a vice is a vice in whatever form or act it maybe. i am disgusted by it since it does not do you any good even if people claim that it is their form of relaxation. There are lots of stuffs to do out there that would not take away your money. Yes, I hate it because I can't afford it, and even if I can I won't indulge myself in it for it's not practical.

Let's start of...
1. Starbucks - I am not crazy to be overly addicted with how good their coffee is or how well they make concoctions. Really, a 100 bucks for a big cup of coffee is insane. Good thing, it's bad for my tummy. I won't be a hypocrite and say I haven't tried it or have not long to try it again, but it's not just that practical.

2. Sauna/Gaybars/Pick-ups - No offense to those concerned, this is just how my pickle minded brain see it. It is not a healthy habit to do this nor to even try it, what if you get infected. is the thrill worth ruining your life, your relationship? think about it?

4. Internet gaming - a waste of energy, time and money, need i say more?

3. Casino/card games/anything that requires a bet - you work hard for your money, then you'll just be throwing it away just like that. you'd probably argue with me that it's not just like that, you play it, gamble it, if your lucky enough you double it if not you'll go home empty handed. have you ever thought of counting the money you have spent over the times/years you have started gambling, and once you have done that tell me, was it actually worth it to lose that big amount of money for nothing?

I am not being a saint here, but if you wanted to throw away your money then why not give it to some charitable institutions that they may be able to feed a couple more people with your money, or send someone to school so that atleast one individual in this depressed country would have had the chance for a brighter future. Or if you don't feel like being that kind of person ,why not save it up for your future. If you have the mind set that you'd probably earn more over the years and would have get it through promotion or working overseas, that the money you are currently receiving is just a means for you to enjoy life, then I wish you a good future.It doesn't hurt to start NOW. Those who are saving up their hard earned money would have accumulated more than you if you would still keep your vices. you are blessed with a good job and a good salary, i think it's about time you stop and think about how lucky you are. always remember that your cup of coffee, you buy in, your entrance fee could have provide a family one decent meal on their table if they only have your money.

vanilla sky

its been seven days since i last saw you. seven long days of not wanting to miss you.i really don't want to do that but that was the last thing i know that would refrain me from bugging you or getting mad at you for no logical reason at all. but the bad thing about that is that, ive grown cold towards you...your sweet messages, your attempts to brighten up my gloomy mood... you trying to tell me how much you've missed me. it felt like being in a long distance relationship with you. i wonder how things would be if you really left for a much greener pasture.i think i don't want to know.i don't know if i could wait that long contrary to what i always say.wait, i think i can. i can be single till you ge back. i can be as cold as ice like what i was before you came to my life and yes, i will be colder towards you than i was now. coldness is my shield to not get hurt in the process of missing you.to still be sane while continuing with my life alone without you. i woke up feeling very sedated. i'm not sure if the marshmallow i ate last night had drugs in it or isi just the fine, cloudy weather outside more of like vanilla sky,very calm and...yeah, maybe it was the mallows.i felt silly for treating you like that.felt guilty for acting so childish.all the realizations and answers dawned on me while in the shutte.found the answers all rushing on my tiny narrow mind...and now, i'm starting to understand...when would it wear of...i don't know...maybe after lunch...and at this very second..i'd be telling you...from the bottom of my heart...i missing you so bad it hurts....

haay naku!sumakit ang puso ko nung nakita ko yung payslip ko. sa laki ng tax at deductions at bawas dahil absent ka..halos 1/4 na yun ng sweldo ko. ang hirap tlga..lagi na lang ako walang pera. sa laki ng binabayaran ko every payday..kulang pa ung sweldo ko... nakakainis tlga... hindi ka rin makagimik kasi wala ka pera. tapos lagi ko na lang sinasabi sa mga nagyayaya na wala ako pera kahit kakasweldo lang. alam ko nakakainis ng pakinggan pero wala tlga..kulang pa ung natitira para sa pamasahe ko until the next payday. nakakainis... ang laki laki ng tax wala naman akong nakikitang pinupuntahan ng tax ko. yes, i'm not looking at the bigger picture pero dba dapat kahit hindi ka tumingin dun may makita ka ng effect ng tax na binabawas sau? asar tlga... sa isang buong taon, yung tax na binawas sakin eh pang isang sem na ng kapatid ko sa college. asar tlga.... yumayaman lang ang mga corrupt eh.ggggrrrrr....ewan!!!!!

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